I am happy to report that I ate clean all day today!
Here's how my day went. I woke up at 7:15am to my phone alerting me that someone had done something on Facebook worthy of an alert. I looked, and it was someone encouraging me with a wakeup call! This was actually more than fantastic, because I had, in no doubt a self-sabotaging attempt, NOT set an alarm. So I set it for 7:45am and went back to sleep. I hit snooze every five minutes after that until 9am.
I was tired.
I did make it to the gym, though! All I wanted to do was rock out! I had this overwhelming urge to dying for hours until I got over it. But I don't just mean sing. I mean sing at the top of my lungs INTENSE kind of singing.
When I got on the elliptical, I realized my urge wasn't necessarily about singing, but about doing something hard, something with intensity. In short, my body was trying to tell me it missed those intensity workouts. That was pretty cool.
Actually, it was pretty awesome because when I got to the gym, I was still super groggy and thought I might just take it easy today. My brain was saying both: "You did not eat clean today. You should do an interval workout because you will jump on the opportunity to burn lots of fat. You may not have the same opportunity tomorrow" and "I don't feel like it. Isn't it equally important to only do what FEELS good, you know, so that I'll want to come back tomorrow?"
Guess which voice I thought sounded like the "wiser" option?
But, as I started working out and listening to Kelly Clarkson's Mr. Know It All, I remembered that you shouldn't let your feelings guide your behavior in situations like these, because in all actuality, your FEELINGS are a RESULT of the BEHAVIOR you have been doing. If you change your behavior, your feelings will follow.
Just as I was getting into this train of thought (I had completed 5 pops), my phone rang. It was work. I was supposed to be there 10 minutes ago. So, I stopped my workout, 75% relieved, 25% disappointed.
I went home, made my breakfast, got ready and went back to work, thinking I would go to the gym between shifts.
Well that didn't happen. I ate breakfast at 11am (5 egg whites, 1 yolk, 1/2 cup oatmeal-measured before cooking, with blueberries and a Saint's coffee.) I ate lunch at 3pm (6oz chicken, lots of spinach, cabbage, bok choy, broccoli, and two scoops of sesame oil, 1 cup brown rice), and I finally took a break from 3:45pm-5pm. We were actually pretty busy today, and so the day flew by.
I tried to take a nap. That was a giant fail.
I went back in at 5pm, and we were busy again. For waiting tables, this was a very good thing.
I ate my last meal around 7:30pm. 6 egg whites, 1 yolk and a giant spoonful of peanut butter, which was delicious. I tried to drink all the water I'm supposed to, but I'm sure I fell short of that.
Oh well. I'm very happy with the job I did today. And I decided to let go if the gym. My opportunity to get my workout in was before work, and I did the best that I could.
Also, I weighed in at 130.8 today- which amazes me because yesterday I thought I had put all my weight back on.
Tomorrow, the goals are the same. I need to add visualization to my list of things to complete in a day though.
Well it's 12:12am. So goodnight!
The self-awareness you post in this blog just amazes me.
ReplyDeleteThank you! People say that a lot, and for some reason, I thought they were just being nice. But now that you're saying it, in a place where other people can read it...now I'm thinking, "Hey, I think she means it! And probably those other people did too...!"
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement, it means a lot! An
that wakeup call! I don't know what inspired you to do that, but I appreciated it!