Day 43. Irritating Day.

I fell off my diet a little bit today.  Not bad.  I woke up at 5:39am, which is 39 minutes late, but no big deal.  I did have to skip a few exercises at the gym because of it though.  A few sets of different bicep curls.  I tried to make up for it later in the day, but no.  Five pound weights just aren't going to cut it.
Here's how my day went:  I got to the gym at 7am, roughly 1 hour later than I wanted.  But I recognized that what I wanted wasn't realistic, so I suppose I will need to get over it.  Anyway, I felt good, felt rested.  Felt JACKED on my superpump!  So I got to work, but somehow it took me 30 minutes to get through 2 supersets (4 sets each, so a total of 16 exercises).  I guess that makes sense, but it totally pissed me off.  At 7:45am I knew I needed to switch to cardio if I was going to get the half-hour in.  So I did.  Then I stretched and went to shower...no hot water at the gym, and then I dropped my bottle of Muscle Martini (that stuff takes care of cravings like NOBODY'S BUSINESS!!!).  Luckily I didn't have to go straight to work, I had time to shower, so I shouldn't be so annoyed at the inconvenience.  It was actually quite convenient that it happened that way today and not, say Friday, when I have a presentation to give at 8am.
Anyway, when I got home, I took a shower and I was overcome with tired.  So I laid down for about an hour before I went to work.
The rest of the day was overwhelming and frustrating.  And now it's 10pm and I'm hungry.  But I ate 2 dark chocolates and 1 cookies and cream chocolate during class, plus a coffee with a tiny bit of French Vanilla creamer at 5pm (while I was putting Fix-A-Flat in my tire...THAT was an episode...ugh).  So, I know in reality it's probably less than 100 calories of stuff that is not helping me toward my goal.  My main concern is the downward spiral.  I feel a little like I'm losing my cool.  I have only struggled with diet one other time, and that was just because I was feeling disappointed.
Hm.  Perhaps today just had to do with feeling frustrated, and maybe it doesn't have to be a downward spiral.  Although, if I don't get my office and my home organized, I don't know how I'm going to escape it.  So, I guess that's my plan.  Organize my office and my home.  Alright.  I'll get working on that.  And, I need to get back to my Chalene Johnson to-do list.  I've been neglecting that and that also makes me feel helpless and out of control.
For now, I'm going to try to continue to get caught up on rest.
Goodnight.