Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Week Six, Day Two!

Today was a relatively easy day!  I don't know if the habits are settling in, or WHAT, but I just got up (not on time, too tired), ate my breakfast (8:30am), went to work, ate meal #2 (11:30am), went home, ate meal #3 (2pm), took a nap (oops, but I'm getting the idea...work with what life throws at you) then went back to work and ate meal #4 (5:45pm too late in the day to have meal #5).

It's really amazing how I don't feel like I have anything to write about.  It wasn't a struggle.  But I guess that's the thing to write about.  I must have broken through some kind of barrier.  Now, granted, I'm not doing the program PERFECTLY.  I wish I was, I wonder what kind of difference in results I would be seeing.  But I am doing my very best, every single day. 

I feel like I got over some major hump the last two weeks.  I was not going to CHOOSE to go completely off my plan.  It's not like I would have gone to McDonald's, but the thought DID cross my mind.  I did choose to eat two Luna bars when there were perfectly viable alternatives at my fingertips (tuna, for example).  I guess that's when I realized I was thinking about the plan in terms of the "scarcity brain" concept that I learned about through Martha Beck's book, The Four Day Win.  Once I stopped doing that and really started accepting this new way of eating, for the 30th day in a row or so...my brain gave up the fight.

I'm hoping what will happen next is what I predicted:  That eating this way will become just as second nature as eating the way I used to. 

I could definitely have my breakfast every day for quite some time.  And I should probably broaden my food choices a little bit.  I have eat the same thing pretty consistently for these past 5 weeks.

I guess one thing that wasn't great about today was that I didn't work out.  But it may have been more important to get the sleep I needed.

That's ok, because I will definitely work out tomorrow.  I'm thinking bear runs in the morning.  Really need to find a way to fit in some strength-training, because I haven't done that in a while.  No plan as of yet, though.

In related news...
I'm excited for my cheat day...but as it gets closer and closer...it's like I care less and less.  I don't know what to make of it.  Tonight, I was able to think about what I might indulge in on that day while I was eating my dinner, and it didn't bother me at all.  I don't recommend doing that, though.  I'm finding that I really need to taste and appreciate the food that I'm currently eating, not dreaming about something else.  It really creates a feeling of dissatisfaction.

Anyway, so I know that it will all come down to what I feel like on the July 15th (my day that I get to cheat), but I can't help wondering what my top choices would be.  I feel like if you're only going to eat a high carb, high fat meal once a week (or on July 15th, it'll be TWICE!  With dessert once-I think. :)), you want to make sure it's your top choice.  But...that doesn't really mean much.  My top choice might change a thousand times between now and the 15th.  So far, I'm thinking, pancakes/waffle and eggs and bacon and coffee at the Waffle Shop, maybe Five Guys (they seem to be my go-to bad food), and just today I thought about wings and french fries.  I just don't know what my choices would be for dessert.  I just can't think of anything.  I mean, I would love Kiwi, but...what if I cheat myself out of my cheat meal???  I thought of cheesecake and ice cream...but I'm wondering...is EVERY dessert a dairy thing?

In keeping with the spirit of re-learning how to eat, I will avoid McDonalds, Taco Bell, Burger King etc.  If I want a burger, I can get Five Guys, which doesn't inject (that I know of) their meat with high fructose corn syrup.  I don't WANT the HFCS, I want the burger (and the ketchup...which has HFCS, oops). If I want tacos, I can make my own.  I don't want to eat "edible foodlike substances".  Watch--now that I said that, all I'll want is one of those awful restaurants on my cheat day.

Well, I suppose I will just let it unfold as it may!  I'm happy to let the day bring me what it brings me!
For now, I'm gonna keep rocking this plan.

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