Bear-run intervals have me walking funny today. And yes, that is what I'm going to call them from now until forever.
This is what I tried to visualize to motivate me to really run for my life:
In case this isn't clear, I am SO. SORE. TODAY. In order to walk, I actually find that it's less painful to brace myself by holding/flexing my stomach muscles because my quads and hamstrings are so sore that...well I don't know why, but it's just less painful. This is a wonderful thing. I haven't been this sore in ages. Means I really put it all out there! My abs are also pretty sore, yay! My arms also got it. So, pretty much everything but my back hurts. I'll need to get a good run and stretch in in the morning.
And, wow, I am HUNGRY today!
I suppose it has something to do with the fact that I didn't eat the additional calories that Amy added in today. Meaning, I skipped the blueberries and the yam. Oh, but I love the yam. I feel like since I lost 5 pounds, I probably should eat less, right? I should really ask her that before just deciding for myself. Will do.
I am having a pretty good day, I guess. I went to bed too late last night and definitely regret it. I dragged myself out of bed this morning and starting off eating my first meal at 8:30am instead of 7am. Oops. Then, I was so tired that during my 4-hour work break, I took a 2.5 hour nap. I know that's not ideal. If I understand it correctly, the plan is to eat your meals spaced 3 hours apart in order to keep your metabolism and energy up throughout the day.
Today has been challenging. I found that I wasn't hungry enough to eat the banana (in addition to the egg whites and oatmeal) right away, so I waited until I got to work and felt hungry again to eat it. I don't know if that's right...but it seems to make sense. I'm sure I'll find out (another thing to ask Amy). Then I had my next meal at 11am...which was 2.5 hours after my first meal, so I figured it would be ok.
However, I didn't eat again until 3:45pm. Which was my rice cake with peanut butter, and I only ate that immediately before leaving for work again, because I thought I would REALLY throw things off if I didn't eat something RIGHT NOW. That was right after I took my nap, too. *big happy smile for naps!*
So, backing up a little bit, I left for therapy at 12pm, and afterward, I just wanted NOTHING more than a nap. I just needed to lay down, even though I knew that would throw off my meals and my energy levels. I just thought, "I'll have to try again tomorrow, because if I am going to get through the rest of the day, I'm gonna need more sleep." Plus my body is ACHING from all the hard work I did yesterday. Certainly some additional rest was warranted!
I meant to sleep for an hour, get up and go for a run, and get ready to go back to work. However, my alarm didn't go off, and I ended up sleeping from 1:30-3:30, and then I REALLY didn't want to get up and go back to work.
But I did. And I ate my chicken and salad at about 4:30pm. It satisfied my hunger for about 15 minutes, so then at 5:15-ish, I was able to eat my turkey burger and broccoli. But...I forgot (!!!) my black beans, which are my FAVORITE part of that meal, so I ate my asparagus with it. Finally, at 7:30pm I ate my cod and green beans. I guess I missed more calories than I thought. But I did have more than a cup of green beans. I ate almost a can of them.
So, now I'm hungry and it's 10pm and I need to go to bed. But before I do that, I must say...
I just can't get over how my body is changing! Today was a real eye opener. As I was driving to work today, I looked down at my lap for some reason and was SHOCKED that I could see my zipper! It was like, "Wow, my belly is REALLY shrinking!" Also, as I look at my legs, it's clear that the fat is melting off of my thighs (in irregular shapes...thanks, thigh fat). This is truly quite exciting!
Only today, I am REALLY hungry. (Could have something to do with just completely screwing my meals up-hello!) I am finding myself fighting cravings for a pudding cup or 10. I wonder if it is just a natural consequence of eating a S'more on the weekend. It was really tasty! So I keep having to remind myself WHY I am doing this. It's not for punishment, it's not for torture. It's because seeing my belly muscles has been something I have wanted since I was a teenager, and this is the closest I've ever been to achieving it purposefully. (There was a period of my life marked by heartbreak and extreme anxiety that I got really skinny...but that was because I couldn't eat and all I did was drink til I puked...NOT the way I want to do this!)
Anyway, so the bottom line for today is that I saw MAJOR changes in the positive direction for me today, so even though it was hard to fight through cravings, tomorrow will be easier. Especially if I go to bed. RIGHT NOW.
This is what I tried to visualize to motivate me to really run for my life:
In case this isn't clear, I am SO. SORE. TODAY. In order to walk, I actually find that it's less painful to brace myself by holding/flexing my stomach muscles because my quads and hamstrings are so sore that...well I don't know why, but it's just less painful. This is a wonderful thing. I haven't been this sore in ages. Means I really put it all out there! My abs are also pretty sore, yay! My arms also got it. So, pretty much everything but my back hurts. I'll need to get a good run and stretch in in the morning.
And, wow, I am HUNGRY today!
I suppose it has something to do with the fact that I didn't eat the additional calories that Amy added in today. Meaning, I skipped the blueberries and the yam. Oh, but I love the yam. I feel like since I lost 5 pounds, I probably should eat less, right? I should really ask her that before just deciding for myself. Will do.
I am having a pretty good day, I guess. I went to bed too late last night and definitely regret it. I dragged myself out of bed this morning and starting off eating my first meal at 8:30am instead of 7am. Oops. Then, I was so tired that during my 4-hour work break, I took a 2.5 hour nap. I know that's not ideal. If I understand it correctly, the plan is to eat your meals spaced 3 hours apart in order to keep your metabolism and energy up throughout the day.
Today has been challenging. I found that I wasn't hungry enough to eat the banana (in addition to the egg whites and oatmeal) right away, so I waited until I got to work and felt hungry again to eat it. I don't know if that's right...but it seems to make sense. I'm sure I'll find out (another thing to ask Amy). Then I had my next meal at 11am...which was 2.5 hours after my first meal, so I figured it would be ok.
However, I didn't eat again until 3:45pm. Which was my rice cake with peanut butter, and I only ate that immediately before leaving for work again, because I thought I would REALLY throw things off if I didn't eat something RIGHT NOW. That was right after I took my nap, too. *big happy smile for naps!*
So, backing up a little bit, I left for therapy at 12pm, and afterward, I just wanted NOTHING more than a nap. I just needed to lay down, even though I knew that would throw off my meals and my energy levels. I just thought, "I'll have to try again tomorrow, because if I am going to get through the rest of the day, I'm gonna need more sleep." Plus my body is ACHING from all the hard work I did yesterday. Certainly some additional rest was warranted!
I meant to sleep for an hour, get up and go for a run, and get ready to go back to work. However, my alarm didn't go off, and I ended up sleeping from 1:30-3:30, and then I REALLY didn't want to get up and go back to work.
But I did. And I ate my chicken and salad at about 4:30pm. It satisfied my hunger for about 15 minutes, so then at 5:15-ish, I was able to eat my turkey burger and broccoli. But...I forgot (!!!) my black beans, which are my FAVORITE part of that meal, so I ate my asparagus with it. Finally, at 7:30pm I ate my cod and green beans. I guess I missed more calories than I thought. But I did have more than a cup of green beans. I ate almost a can of them.
So, now I'm hungry and it's 10pm and I need to go to bed. But before I do that, I must say...
I just can't get over how my body is changing! Today was a real eye opener. As I was driving to work today, I looked down at my lap for some reason and was SHOCKED that I could see my zipper! It was like, "Wow, my belly is REALLY shrinking!" Also, as I look at my legs, it's clear that the fat is melting off of my thighs (in irregular shapes...thanks, thigh fat). This is truly quite exciting!
Only today, I am REALLY hungry. (Could have something to do with just completely screwing my meals up-hello!) I am finding myself fighting cravings for a pudding cup or 10. I wonder if it is just a natural consequence of eating a S'more on the weekend. It was really tasty! So I keep having to remind myself WHY I am doing this. It's not for punishment, it's not for torture. It's because seeing my belly muscles has been something I have wanted since I was a teenager, and this is the closest I've ever been to achieving it purposefully. (There was a period of my life marked by heartbreak and extreme anxiety that I got really skinny...but that was because I couldn't eat and all I did was drink til I puked...NOT the way I want to do this!)
Anyway, so the bottom line for today is that I saw MAJOR changes in the positive direction for me today, so even though it was hard to fight through cravings, tomorrow will be easier. Especially if I go to bed. RIGHT NOW.
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